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I just had an entire conversation with myself about why I don't write.

Then I realized that writing about why I don't write (for the billionth time) is probably the better way to go about it.

(I also just finished eating a salad for dinner, which strongly reminded me of the reason I don't like salads-- they're boring.)

Anyway, ever since I learned what a rough draft was (probably, like, 3rd or 4th grade), I've hated it. I never liked the idea of it, primarily because, at such a young age, I somehow gleaned that my writing was the shit. And the good grades proved to be proof enough that I didn't need rough drafts-- what I wrote was gold.
Eventually, I'd just write two copies of whatever the assignment was and label one the rough draft (maybe change a word or two) and call it a day. That's probably when my inner editor was born. I continued writing in this way through junior high and high school. Whatever I wrote was always the final product.
And perhaps that's evolved into what plagues me to this day. Despite the fact that I'm not turning in any of my work into an instructor for a grade, when I write, I write as if it's the final draft and therefore no mistakes can be made. Cue the constant deleting and backtracking and frustration because a sentence or, hell, a whole page just 'doesn't sound right'.

In any case, I'm looking to The Writing Prompts subreddit this NaNoWriMo to kickstart my brain into creating anything. Ideally, the outcome will be a collection of short stories. We'll see how it goes.
Another idea I've mulled about in my head is writing a story from the perspective of a character in a video game. Not the main character, obviously. A lot of that boils down to which game and, I guess, trying to avoid simply retelling the entire plot of the game.

We'll see.