borassus

So when I'm bored at work, sometimes I'll get lost in the seemingly endless pages of tvtropes.org, just reading about varies tropes used in assorted media (mostly video games).
On one hand, it's fun because it kind of gives my mind something to play with in regards to writing. It helps me think of what kind of character I'd create for a story and how to make them interesting or how to provide some kind of conflict for them.
On the other hand, it's annoying because I deeply want to write something that engages me; something that will spur me to continue until the story is complete. A lot of times, when I begin writing fiction, I get a glimpse of what the outcome of the plot will be and that knowing will defeat me because the middle is such a big mess to figure out.
Another thing: I'm in constant fear that any idea I get has been done already or isn't of my own creation. I'm inspired by various different works in different media (music, art, literature, etc.), but I'm worried I'll subconsciously plagiarize something and get called out for it.
My mind is telling me there's a book on that-- coming up with unique or creative ideas. I'll have to look into that.
I could go on into the many variables of my writer's block/paralysis/coma, but I think a good chunk of my hesitation/frustration is fear.
I think know I'm afraid my work will sound stupid or unoriginal or childish. I also know I'm a fool for thinking I'll suddenly be a brilliant writer without getting through some rough drafts.

Get it together. Get it together.