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My roommate's out visiting one of her friends and I guess her cat felt lonely--
he meowed until he reached my room and then slowly padded up to my bed, effortlessly hopping up next to me, and nestled himself into my lap.
Now, since my boyfriend's allergic to cats (and everything else in the world, it seems), I try to keep my direct contact with the cat to a minimum. But it just seemed like the little guy wanted a pal so I left him there to rest, not even flinching when his claws pressed through the fabric of my sweatpants and poked at my skin.
He was comfortable.
It just dawned on me that I've got two more years until I can go back to school and I got a little giddy. In fact, I'm torn between excitement and anxiety because I'll have to make a decision in two years. I'll either bite the bullet and carry on the way things are now or make some kind of leap of faith and attempt school again or, hell, try something radical like traveling abroad.
I just don't know.
I have a friend who has his future planned out to the finest detail. He has hopes and dreams and the ambition and drive to go for them.
Me? Not so much. I stay right here. In the present. In the now. Now. Now. Now. Now. Now. Now.
I've never been so sure as to why I never make plans. I mean, I try. Most of the time, they're last minute plans, but I try. I'm just living one day at a time, I suppose.
For instance, as cliche as it may seem, I'm trying to get back into my fitness routine. Do I have a goal? Nope. But I just want to feel like I'm contributing to my health, I guess. Mainly, that means getting back to running at least two miles a day, three times a week. And, as I previously mentioned, I intend to begin doing Tai Chi again (I mean, really, it's like a fifteen minute squat!).
Several months ago, I was feeling a bit lethargic; there was, in a sense, nothing to my life. It was just work, home, games-- lather, rinse, repeat. There were positive changes, e.g. new job, new boyfriend, new friends, etc, but, deep down, I think I still felt some kind of need for dramatic change.
Hopefully, with the coming of a much needed pay raise at work, I can purchase a new car. And on top of that, maybe I'll achieve some kind of level of fitness as well. We'll see.